Being a functioning human being is hard.
There are some days I just don’t want to do it! The pressures of everyone and everything around me just get to be too much. I look on Facebook and I’m overwhelmed. I check Instagram and everything is picture perfect. I browse Pinterest and the houses are immaculate, the first birthday parties are elaborate and coordinated perfectly, and heaven forbid I
obsess over glance at the hair and makeup pin board – I’m done.
It all makes me feel terrible. I look at my hair and I start to see it as too frizzy. I put my makeup on, but I can’t seem to put it on right. Why can’t I look like Julia Roberts? I start to get dressed, but then I remember all my clothes are out of style and don’t fit anyway.
I sit on the floor of my daughter’s room with her as she plays with her toys. I think to myself, “at least I did this right. At least I gave birth to a healthy baby girl.” And that’s true. But, I don’t make her baby wipes from spit and yarn and she doesn’t wear cloth diapers. Most of the time I don’t even puree her baby food – we buy prepackaged Gerber food. Can you believe it? I can’t compete with the moms who only feed their baby organic, use essential oils all day, and somehow still have time to make sure the laundry is folded.
There are days I seriously feel like I can’t do anything.
And then I open the Good News, and start to feel a little relieved:
“Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many of you were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things – and the things that are not – to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God – that is, our righteousness, holiness, and redemption. There, as it is written: ‘Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.’” I Corinthians 1:26-31 (emphasis added)
God doesn’t choose to use us because we are the best of the best. He doesn’t love us because we excel at everything we do. He loved us before we even knew him, before we could even try to impress him. He chose us – the struggling mamas who feel like they’re losing it – to raise children that will love him. He chose us – the ones who feel like they can’t do anything – to make the biggest difference in someone’s life by showing them the way to salvation. He chooses those of us who aren’t celebrities, who aren’t well-known in our communities, or who don’t feel good about themselves, to make an impact.
Friends, it is through us that the biggest differences are made.
We must start living like we are chosen.