A Letter To The Anxious Mom

Hey there, nice to meet you. I’m an anxious mom too.

You’re here because you probably feel like you’re the only mom that struggles with feelings of anxiety every day. I’m here to tell you that you’re not.

To give you a brief overview of my history with this issue, I’ve been wrestling this demon since I was small but it was always mislabeled as something else – nervousness, jitters, etc. After I got married, the anxiety made itself known through frequent panic attacks, during the day but mostly at night. My poor newlywed husband first helped me learn to breathe through them so that I didn’t feel like I was dying.

In 2013 I starting seeing a counselor about it, and it helped for a short time. I decided that therapy and breathing exercises weren’t enough for me, so I decided to talk to my doctor about going on medication. Fortunately for me, it did make a big difference.

So much of a difference, in fact, that I told myself I was “all better,” and stopped my medication prematurely…after about a year. Let me just say, rarely is that ever a good idea! I talked to my doctor again, went back on the medication… and a couple weeks later found out I was pregnant with my daughter.

My whole world turned upside down. Not only was I was trying to figure out how I was going to be a good mother, now I couldn’t even function as well as I had before. I stopped taking my medication to prevent any risk during my pregnancy.

I stayed off the medication until after my son was born in 2015. The panic attacks stayed pretty constant, and after spiraling more in 2016 I started my medication again.

The days are hard. Harder, even, than being a mom without anxiety (if I can be so bold). There was a time I wouldn’t leave the house for fear I would have panic attacks in the car with my children. Even now, I stay within a comfortable five mile  radius from my home most days.

But let me also say, there is hope. Fear does not have the final say. You can get through this, you just need to find the right combination of things that is tailored to you and your needs.

Don’t hesitate to reach out if you want to talk about this more! I won’t hold back talking about my journey with mothering & anxiety, so stay tuned for future posts on this as well.

If you’re an anxious mom too, be sure to check out my Etsy shop! I sell cute stickers this like one!

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